The Winds of Change

More like the fear of change.

There are several times in our lives when we face an inevitable shift in the things we are use to. Sometimes they are welcomed changes, and other times they are dreaded. Either way, they are bound to happen, and what comes with change is often a lesson learned. What you take from life experience is what truly makes it good or bad. 

Right now in my life, as I gear up for a huge transition, I am asking myself,

"Is this going to mold my life for the better? Or is it going take me a step backwards?"

The more I contemplate this question, I am pretty sure of the answer. But I need to try and see it from all angles available. Relocation is usually a great thing (in my case, anyways), but I am trying to keep in mind that I am not the only one effected by my actions. How will this effect my children? I remember as a child when my mother would move us time and time again, almost at the drop of a hat. I hated it. Every time I felt as if I was just starting to belong somewhere, I found myself having to get rid of half of my belongings and then being thrown into a brand new, unfamiliar place again, full of people I had never met before.
Yes, eventually I would adjust, but as soon as that would happen, it would start all over again.

I would never want my littles to feel that way.

There are times when I feel as if I may be following the same footsteps my mother did, but then I remember that it might not be so bad. Well, it's not bad to be like her in the areas where she gave us her love, and shared wonderful memories with us, and that's what I'm referring to. When we were younger, no matter where we were moving to at that time, she would always try and make sure we felt like it was home, and that is my intention with my babies. 

When I told Magoo that we were moving, I was afraid she would be sad to leave her now established school and friends behind. However, she caught me by surprise when she shouted with excitement, gazing at me with curiosity and wonder gleaming in her eyes. 

What a sigh of relief.

No one likes the thought of disappointing anyone, let alone their children. So with her approval, I finally know we are doing the right thing. Now that the fear and dread is gone, we can really start looking forward to the future, and whatever this new beginning is going to bring us! 

YES!

I fully look forward to what the future will bring, and I am ecstatic to take the leap. More than anything, I am glad that I will have people I love surrounding me during this crazy ride!